The way I feel about you 8059

I hate it.
The way I feel about you I just... totally hate it.

You make me so irritated. You don't look at me enough. You gave your smile for someone other than me. Don't smile like that to her idiot.

When I saw you in front of me, I just wanted to put my arms around you and kiss but...

...I wasn't brave enough...

Because I knew that you didn't feel the same? Because I knew that I just would be embarrassed afterwards.  

Even though you were so near to me, still, I felt that you were somewhere beyond of my reach... I could've touched you but my hands didn't want to move and I gave up.


Why I have to love you so much even though I know that you're not anything like the one I used to dream of? Why... I hate the things that you do but still... I always find myself thinking about you and just can't stop it.  

Please... Take my hand now. Hug me and kiss me...

I can't even look at your way. I think I'm blushing and I secretly want you to notice that...

...

Nothing happened...

Yamamoto, you're such an idiot. But I guess I'm an idiot too... I should have never fallen for you but now, after falling... I can't go back anymore.

I love you, you fucking asshole.